Picking up weeds, she hasn't got the time to care
All can see he's not there
Maybe love is overrated. Maybe it's just.. shit, too hard, not for everyone. And yes I mean love between people, that kind of love that changes your world, turns it all around. Or at least should. Geez, I shouldnt be in a relationship anymore. If I call her one more time and tell her to break up with me? It's not normal to fight about the same things every time. If we arent getting anywhere already then what about future? It's just gonna make us hate each other. Unless she already does. Please, please, paranoia, but I think I am right this time.
I cant believe she might be with that guy even now. Thats shit. I'm jealous as hell. He's destroying my life, stealing my girl and... well, talking to me. Thats not good for my state of mind. Again. And another thing making me feel great envy... One other girl told me about eating ice cream with friends after school. It was sunny all day and they were having a good time. Maybe sitting here in darkness with needles and shit around me just isnt the best place for healthy feelings. Maybe I should get the fuck out of this place.
But, as usual, I dont wanna face anyone. I dont wanna go out and let people see this beaten face. I dont wanna see her. I can apologise and ask are we okay now but we arent. Maybe I should stop asking her to break up with me and simply do it myself. Force myself to tell her, its not working. I think everyone would be happier... I think. I wouldnt, but lets be honest: when have I last been any happy?
Yea, exactly. I dont even know. I have a death wish.
He doesn't know so then
She goes up while he goes down, down
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